Heartbreak and Hardships…sometimes life sucks

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Sometimes I feel like I’m forced to face the same challenge a hundred times over. Same people, similar circumstances, over and over and over again. It seems like no matter what I do, I find myself in the middle of a new act in the exact same circus. It’s not easy. It’s not fun. It takes it’s toll on my body, my mind, and my spirit. Sometimes I swear I can feel my heart cracking.

As much as each experience breaks my heart a little more than the last, I continue to be grateful for the lessons I have learned along this bumpy road;

  1. Things are rarely as they seem
  2. Everyone wants to be heard, not everyone wants to be helped
  3. Dishonesty can take many forms; half-truths, withheld information, and deliberate misleading. Sometimes it pays to dig a little deeper
  4. Every person is doing the best that they can with the knowledge that they have
  5. I can only help people that want to be helped and only to the extent that they want to be helped
  6. Everyone needs, deserves, and is entitled to compassion and encouragement
  7. Mistakes are inevitable – Apologies are necessary
  8. The more you give, the more people will take; Personal boundaries are vital to personal well-being
  9. When I do the same as I’ve done, I continue to see the same results

Number 10 …. If I continue to find myself in the middle of a destructive cycle, it’s time to ask the question; what role do I play in the cycle? Am I enabling the pattern?

I usually take on the role of peacekeeper, which sometimes also translates to ‘enabler’.  I’ve allowed myself to be played as the rope in the middle of a tug-a-war (a war that isn’t even mine to fight!). I am responsible for taking on those roles. By removing myself from the cycle, change in that cycle is inevitable.

Not so long ago, I had the opportunity to put this theory to the test. It was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. It was easily one of the most liberating as well.

We are all responsible for the choices we make in our lives. We are all responsible for the roles we play in it as well. If things aren’t working as they should, then is it not our responsibility to instill change?

Go for it!

Embrace your awesomeness!

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The Wall of Doubt

Every moment of every day, you decide what your future will look like. There is a voice inside your heart right now that is letting you know exactly what it wants. It may be a gentle whisper, it may be a relentless scream, but it’s there….listen…Can you hear it?

When you act on that little voice, everything in the world feels right. That is until you hit the Wall of Doubt. The Wall of Doubt is invisible to the eye and crippling to the soul. It is the only REAL obstacle you will face on your journey to fulfillment.

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The Wall of Doubt is the window to shattered dreams. There is no going around it, no avoiding it, no going over it, or under it. You must go through it.

Although The Wall of Doubt has many faces, it is nothing more than self-doubt manifested as misinterpreted discouragement in the words of others, misunderstood “signs” from above, and ill-perceived mistakes.

Let your mistakes be your motivation

As Chris and Janet Attwood said in The Passion Test “there are only three things holding you back; false beliefs, false concepts, and false ideas – which is really only one”. Make no mistake, the only one standing between you and success is YOU.

When you feel like the world is against you, consider this:

No matter what you do with your life, no matter what decisions you make, people will judge you. There’s no escaping it. Some will agree with your decisions, some will not. Some will celebrate your victories, some will not. Some will be sad when you are down, some will not. Succeed or fail, mistake or not, the fact is that it’s just not possible to please every one all the time. Try to please everyone and you are sure to fail 100% of the time. Why waste time worrying about the opinions of others? When you experience authentic joy, that joy will spill outside of you and onto every person in your life. Why not focus on that instead?

Remember This:

Things are rarely as they seem. When you find yourself in the midst of the judgement of others (especially from those you love), try to remember that although debilitating,  it may be coming from a place of love and protection. You can’t chase your dreams while living inside your comfort zone. When you step outside your comfort zone, you inevitably take those you love right outside of theirs. Of course they will kick up a fuss! Everyone’s irritable outside their zone, throw in the treat of worry for you and…well, now you’ve done it! When those you love come off as less than supportive, pay close attention. It’s likely not the lack of encouragement that is upsetting. More times than not it’s because the words we are hearing from them reflect the doubt we have in our own minds.

Stay true to that little voice inside your heart. Stand strong in face of doubt. Have faith and keep moving forward. Go ahead, Unleash your inner superstar!

You are a star!

Embrace Your Awesomeness!

It’s your turn! Share your thoughts!

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10 Lessons I Learned From Debra Poneman

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Debra Poneman is living, breathing, walking Love. She is a Goddess of transformation. She is a captivating inspirational speaker, and has mentored great leaders such as Marci Shimoff, Depak Chopra, and Janet Attwood.

About 3 years ago, I was in Toronto assisting with the development of The Passion Test for Kids and Teens. It was there that I had the good fortune of meeting Debra, The moment I met her, I absolutely loved her. When I heard her speak I was captivated, and when she told her story, I heard mine.

Today, I’d like to share with you 10 of the lessons I’ve learned from this phenomenal woman, I now call my friend.

  1. You are enough…in fact, you are more than enough. You are exactly and precisely as you were created by God himself
  2. Clarity is the key to transformation
  3. ‘Feeling’ and ‘Faith’ are the magic ingredients to achieving miracles
  4. If an idea comes to you, it’s because God gave it you knowing that you can give it life.
  5. Your heart is your inner GPS, it will never steer you wrong
  6. Everything works out for your greater good. You only need to trust in a plan that is bigger than your own
  7. Great things happens when we treat every person as our child, our mother, our father, our brother, our sister
  8. Give the best of you to every one, every day
  9. Meditation is one of the greatest gifts you can give to yourself
  10. Love is always the answer

These are the lessons I live by, lessons that have never steered me wrong. If you ever have the opportunity to hear Debra speak, brace yourself for when she is done you will be given a whole new outlook. For more information on Debra please visit yestosuccess.com

Embrace her awesomeness!

There are people we encounter in our lives that leave lasting imprints in our hearts, for me Debra Poneman was one of those people. Who influenced your life? What lessons did they leave you with?

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I Tortured My Kid With Song! Creative Parenting

Simon CowellHow many times have you wished you were different than you were? Wished your hair was straight instead of curly, or that you had a talent for cooking instead of burning, or that you were athletic instead of clumsy? I can’t tell you how often I’ve wished for a beautiful singing voice. I love music, I love to dance (can’t dance but I pretend I can), I love to sing (can’t sing but pretend I can). When my babies were little, they used to love when I sang them songs…actually, now that I think of it, they never actually asked me to sing….hmmm….interesting. Oh well. I sang to them a lot, when they went to sleep, when they woke up, as they got ready for school. Never any specific song, nope. I made up each song as I went along. I thought they loved it because my singing always made them laugh. I’ve noticed that the older they get, the more they plead with me to stop singing….they still laugh….most of the time.

Last week, I stumbled upon a gift that is sure to serve me well for the rest of my life. You will never believe what it was…my voice! My beautiful singing voice! Allow me to fill you in…what I am about to share with you is a true story…one that any parent can appreciate.

It was a Sunday like any other dedicated to cleaning up the house in preparation of a brand new week. There I was begging my 11 year old son to clean his room. I had tried everything to get him motivated to create a space he could relax in. I’ve hidden money in his room, I’ve bribed him with quality time exchanges, I’ve taken away his toys, I’ve made him do his own laundry, I’ve taken his beloved extra-curricular activities away, nothing seems to work long term. The best I got was a half-assed clean sweep.

On this day, in another attempt at motivation, I suggested he crank some music. It always worked for me, Dance! Sing! while you clean up. The job seems to do itself! For whatever reason, I can’t remember he said he couldn’t play the music in his room so I offered to sing to him…..WHAM! That’s when it happened, “No! No! Mom, don’t sing!”idea

“I’ll tell you what, I won’t sing if you clean your room, I mean really clean it. If you stop cleaning it before it’s done, I will sing.” He did as any kid his age would do. He called my bluff. Out of my mouth came Taylor Swift and WHAM! “Okay Mom! Okay! Look at me, I’m cleaning my room! See?” Within less than an hour his room was spotless! Brilliant!! That was a major discovery I made right there!!

Unfortunately, this technique will not work for every parent, only maybe those with a special kind of voice. All I’m saying is just for today trust in your whole being and embrace every part of you because sometimes what you may perceive as a fault may one day prove to be your greatest asset 🙂

Embrace your awesomeness!

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Great Courage Can Come in the Smallest Packages – a tribute to Princess Laura

ImageOn January 30th 2013, Laura will be celebrating her 4th birthday! In honor of her birthday, I would like to share her story with you.

Laura was born a happy, healthy baby. A beautiful little package sent from Heaven welcomed into a family with a devoted Mother, a Daddy who is her hero, and a Big Sister who loves her to pieces. Laura never got sick, ever. In fact, the first time she ever needed medical attention was when she was 3 years old. She had fallen and needed X-rays. No one could have prepared themselves for the sequence of events that would follow those X-rays.

Laura has Leukemia. Those three words shattered their hearts and changed their lives forever. Big Sister Victoria cried “why is my sister sick?” Victoria was 8 years old and understood cancer. Laura’s parents were in shock. The next few days were spent expecting the Doctor to call saying it was all a big mistake, the test results were wrong and their little baby girl was fine.

That call never came.

Laura’s Mom continued to pray asking “why? Why my baby? Why would God allow this to happen?”

Do you know that even in the midst of complete heartache, she never loses faith? Do you know why? She told me because she looks into little Laura’s eyes and she knows she’s in God’s hands. She trusts in God’s plan and thanks Him everyday choosing her to be little Laura’s caregiver … Take a moment to really take that in….God bless her.

Laura’s chemotherapy treatments are trying, they take a lot out of her, but even at 3 years old, she toughs it out and remains strong. Laura met her best friend Riley in the hospital, at the time Riley was being treated for kidney cancer. Sadly, Riley passed away only days before celebrating her 4th birthday. Although the time they spend together was brief, they forged a bond that Laura won’t likely forget.

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Two months ago, Laura lost her hair. Her Daddy proudly supported his little girl by honoring the day with a ‘shave day’. He shaved his head to match hers. Embrace his awesomeness!

Being 5 years older than Laura, Big Sister Victoria is a huge help in Laura’s care taking. She asked to have her head shaved too, but it’s hard for little girls to grow their hair back, so she still has hers. Embrace her awesomeness!

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This year Laura will be celebrating her birthday with all her favorite princesses at Disney. Please join me in wishing her a very happy birthday and “liking” her page Team Laura. (Maybe send a shout out to Victoria, Mommy, and Daddy too 🙂  )

Laura continues to stay strong, facing challenges head on and tackling every obstacles that stand in her way. We can all learn from Princess Laura’s bravery and strength.

We embrace your awesomeness Princess Laura!

What will you take from her story?

Please help me share Laura’s story with the rest of the world. Her story deserves to be heard and her family could use all the love and support they can get.

All Love,

Sandy

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You…Through My Eyes

YOU through my eyes

I see in you a girl who has faced more challenges in life than most. A girl who has felt hurt and pain throughout her entire life. I see in you a girl who became a better woman because of it.

I see in you strength, tireless and determined, a strength that has enabled you to conquer the blows that life has thrown your way.

I see in you someone who’s made countless mistakes, only to grow from every single one of them.

I see in you love, a love that is kind and pure, a love that is given from you freely to those you hold dear.

I see in you a woman who genuinely does the best she can with what she knows. One who makes difficult decisions with care and consideration.

I see in you insecurities, brought to life only by false beliefs, false ideas, and false perceptions.

I see in you unlimited potential, able to achieve whatever you dare only to dream.

I see in you vulnerability -although very well hidden – I see in you a woman who is often too hard on herself, one who needs to know she is loved and appreciated, and deserves to be reminded of it.

Embrace Your Awesomeness!

Share this with the women in your life who could use a little loving reminder of how truly beautiful they really are ❤

Take Owness For Your Ripples!

challengeWhat would happen if the only resolution you made for 2013 was to love yourself more? What if 2013 was the year you focused only on fully owning and embracing your inner awesome?

When you look at the world, what you see is a reflection of your thoughts within. If your thoughts within were kinder, gentler, more loving, and accepting, you would see a kinder, gentler, more loving, and accepting world reflected back to you.

I have spent the last few years testing this theory, time and time again. I’m not finished learning, I am a far cry from becoming a master at the craft, but here’s what I’ve learned so far; when I feel balanced within, everything in my world feels balanced. When I feel positive and hopeful, I emanate positivity and hopefulness to those around me. When I am kind and loving, others are too. Don’t get me wrong here, I’m not saying everyone magically starts dancing around with daisies. I’m saying those who are kind and loving hold your attention, and those who are not, don’t.

When you love yourself more, you love others more. When you fully own and embrace your inner awesome, you will find it easy to accept others exactly as they are. When you feel love within, you emanate that love outward and onto everyone around you.

People are curious creatures. Our world sees unimaginable pain, suffering, and darkness. Positive thinking won’t wash it all away but let me ask you this…If everyone resolved to love themselves more and truly embraced their own inner awesome, there would be no room for anything less than love, kindness, and acceptance. There’s a glimpse into a true visionary’s mind! I can hear every realist out there now….NOT GONNA HAPPEN!! Well, I’m an idealist and I say “maybe not, but each person who gives it an honest shot, focusing only on igniting their own internal flame, it’ll change THEIR world, and the ripple effect caused by that one person can touch countless other lives and that’s good enough for me! The question is…is it good enough for you?

Think about it this way…Positive or negative, your thoughts, actions, and attitude create a constant ripple effect. What kind of ripple effect are you causing?

This year I challenge you to take owness for your ripples – ignite your internal flame and embrace your inner awesome – may the ripple effect you cause boomerang right back to you one day 🙂 Please take a few moments to feed your soul with this video 🙂

Your 2013!

2013While Christmas holds the magic, New Years hold the promise. The promise of change, renewal, and reflection.

Out with the old, in with the new!

Resolutions are made with the best of intentions and they are at the top of everyone’s New Years list….well, it seems like everyone’s list but mine…I’m not a big fan of reserving resolutions for January 1st. As a free spirit with a fear of commitment, I’m more of a resolution-anytime-I-feel-the-need kind of gal. I tend to make a lot of resolutions a lot of the time.

Want to hear my secret to a successful resolution?

Before narrowing in on your resolution of choice, take a moment and fully absorb all that you have accomplished this year. I mean, REALLY take it all in.

Did I just stump you there?

It’s much easier to think about the many areas in which we can improve than it is to give ourselves credit where credit is due. Am I right? Doesn’t mean it’s mission impossible, it just means it can take a little time. No worries, you have my word, it’s time well spent.

Think about where you were last year, where you are now, what you have accomplished, and then consider where you’d like to see yourself next year. Consider every area of your life; relationships, financial, spiritual, work, health.

What’s important to you? Your answer holds the key to the whisper in your heart.

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Here is my promise to you – When you follow your heart, you will never go wrong.

If you’re a fan of resolutions, make a resolution that resonates with your hearts desire.

Find a goal that excites you so much that it will challenge your every capacity to be and do your best

Don’t forget! Allow yourself to fall short of your goals every now and then. As human beings, it’s our nature to mess up. Do the best you can, and when you fall, learn, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep moving forward.

Mistakes are the stepping stones to success, they offer the precious gift of life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Be thankful for your mistakes and allow yourself to succeed sloppily.

Always remember, if you need a pick me up, my gift is to help you see yours. I’m always cheering you on!

This year is your year! In the words of my dear friend Temba Spirit, it’s time to reclaim your power!

Thank you for being a part of my 2012.

I Fully Embrace Your Awesomeness!

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The Ultimate Gift

Life is how you live it…not how you spend it

One of the highlights of the Christmas season for me is indulging in Christmas movies! There’s something so comforting and peaceful about curling up with my family beside a lit Christmas tree or near the roaring fire of the wood stove, and allowing myself to be whisked away into a good story. This year didn’t leave much time for Christmas specials. Lucky for me, I had picked one up at Wal-Mart on one of my far-too-many excursions. This one was called The Ultimate Gift. You’d never guess it, but I’m a sucker for stories of miracles, love, and inspiration 😉

The Ultimate Gift has become my new all-time favorite Christmas movie. It is a heartwarming drama based on the novel The Ultimate Gift by Jim Stovall. It is an inspirational story about a young man of privilege who, like many of us, takes his life for granted. He is rich, carefree, and careless. Living off a trust fund and having never worked a day in his life, Jason Stevens is spoiled and unmotivated with little regard for anyone or anything. When his Grandfather passes away, Jason inherits a series of gifts that promise to lead him to the ‘ultimate gift’.

Life shouldn’t be spent avoiding problems but welcoming them as challenges that will strengthen us so that we can be victorious in the future

Each gift is a task and is specifically designed to challenge Jason to grow as a man. It is through these tasks that Jason learns the Gift of Problems, the Gift of Work, the Gift of the Value of Money, the Gift of Friends,  the Gift of Family, the Gift of Laughter, the Gift of Giving, the Gift of Gratitude, the Gift of Dreams, the Gift of Love, and the Gift of a Day.

Any process worth going through will get tougher before it gets easier. That’s what makes learning a gift…even if pain is your teacher

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For me the true gift in this story is the Gift of Emily. Emily is a young girl Jason meets on his quest for the ultimate gift. Emily is a spitfire of attitude with a heart of gold. Emily suffers from a rare form of leukemia and her only wish is for her Mother’s happiness. She quickly made her way into Jason’s heart … and mine as well.

I’m not sure if it was Emily’s story, or the heartache I felt for the families, the children, and the survivors of the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting, or perhaps more likely it was both…I’ve decided to write my second book, Letters From Heaven with love from your Child. My hope is that this book will in some small way provide even an ounce of healing to the hearts of parents who’ve suffered the tragedy of losing of a child, as Letters From Heaven Love Mom xo has for ‘children’ – both young and old – who are forced to live without the loving guidance of their Mother.

Come up with a dream and then act on it

Treat yourself to a gift that is sure to nourish your soul this season and find the time to accompany Jason on his quest for The Ultimate Gift ….Don’t forget the tissue!

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanuka, Joyeux Noel, Season’s Greetings,  Happy Holidays!

Thank you for sharing in my love of writing this year 🙂

Embrace your Awesomeness!

The Gift Of YOU

YOU are a gift to this world.

You have qualities and traits that are uniquely yours. Every detail of you was created with divine precision. Every aspect of you was created with your destiny in mind. Everything about you was created exactly right, and on purpose. You are a magnificent creation. Take a moment and close your eyes. Try to imagine the image God held when He created you. He doesn’t make mistakes. Every living being is a miracle and you are no exception.

YOU are perfectly YOU.

No one can be you better than you can.

Embrace YOUR Awesomeness!

It’s your turn! What do you think makes us all so perfectly unique?

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