The Making of A Book That Broke My Heart

Death happens. It is the saddest most difficult part of life. We all experience death, no one is immune. It can happen any day, at any age, at any stage, to anyone. There is no warning, there is no real preparing, for how  do you say good-bye to someone you love? How do those you love say good-bye to you?

The day this harsh reality hit me, was the day Letters From Heaven Love Mom xo was born.

I remember looking at my children and accepting the reality that there are no guarantees that I would be granted another day with them. There are no guarantees that I will be there when they get married, or have children of their own. There are no guarantees that I will see them graduate or experience their fist date. No guarantees, no warning, no last hug or kiss good-bye. One day it could all be gone. That truth left me fearful. And yet I was filled with a deep sense of gratitude for each and every moment I had been gifted to that day.

Looking into their little faces, I wondered, if something were to happen to me, how long would it take them to begin to forget about the woman that loved them so deeply, the woman they refer to as Mom? How long would it take for them to forget about the crazy morning songs I sing to them when I wake them up? Or the silly nick names I give them? What would they remember of me? What would they miss the most? Who would they turn to when they needed their Mom?

That night, at 3am, I woke up frantically searching in the dark for a pen and paper. The first of the letters was born. The message was so beautiful and absolutely perfect, each word was written through tears for each word held within it the truth of a Mother’s love.

In the months that followed, more letters emerged. Always in the middle of the night, or just before falling asleep. Each letter was uplifting, encouraging, inspiring, and encompassed as much love as a letter could hold.  Each  letter provided guidance through life’s every day challenges and was written in a way that whether they were read as children or as adults, the messages that needed to be heard, would be.

Every letter broke my heart as I took myself out of this world and crossed over to the next where I would place myself watching over my children with all the love and protection of a Mother Angel. Every letter was created on tear stained sheets, in the dark, with a pen in one hand and Kleenex in the other. The whole process was heart wrenching and absolutely worthwhile. No matter what my children will always know that I love them, and through those letters they will feel the absolute, unconditional love of their Mother. They will know how to reach me, they will know my heart, and my deepest wish for their happiness. I have left no room for them to doubt that our love is strong enough to bridge this world and the next.

I felt compelled to share the letters with friends and family. I couldn’t have imagined the impact it would have. I am so pleased that with the help of Teresa DeGrosbois and Faye Levow, and the encouragement of so many Leaders in the transformational world such as best selling author Debra Poneman & Sheri Fink, Susan Heim with Chicken Soup for the Soul, and 6-Time EMMY Winner Shawne Duperon to name a few, Letters From Heaven Love Mom xo is now published and available for purchase. For more information visit our website.

Having the letters published took some careful consideration, these were intimate letters to my children. I would only have them published if it was possible for readers to add their own cherished memories, words of wisdom and love to the pages of the book. The team at Launch Pad Publishing made it happen. Artists Nicole Cote and The Heart Painter have turned the book into a treasured keepsake. Their work is exquisite. I couldn’t be more pleased with the results and I am excited to share these letters with you ❤

May your journey through the Letters be as powerful as mine ❤

All love,

Sandy Bucholtz

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  1. Thanks! Writing the letters was journey all of it’s own for me, and it was so important to me that all Mom’s and/or loved ones left behind be able to make this book all their own. ❤

  2. What a beautiful sentiment. I love that the book is not only letters full of love and wisdom, but also keepsakes that can be personalized by each parent/child. Congratulations!!

  3. Anonymous

     /  October 31, 2012

    Thank you hon I so enjoyed this book….when im lonesome for my mom i read a page or two thanks again….

  4. I’m so glad to hear this post touched your heart, it’s always my intention to stir up emotion in readers 🙂 It’s true, we all need a reminder every now and again to cherish those we are so blessed to have in our lives and fully appreciate all that they bring to ours 🙂 It means so much to me that you took a moment to share your thoughts with me Natalie. Thanks so much!

  5. Natalie Matthieu

     /  October 25, 2012

    You have a way with words. I bawled my eyes out. I’m not a mother but am very close to my nephew. You are so right that we don’t know when our time is up and your post is a nice reminder to enjoy every moment and to cherish the people you love. I’m anxious to read the book.

  6. Faye, I can’t even tell you how much I’ve enjoyed this ride with you. I never get tired of the readers stories. Hearing about their journey through the letters fills my heart with a love I can’t even begin to put into words. This new chapter in my life….I love it!!!

  7. lol I found my spark Jenny!!

  8. I’m so glad I made you cry….lol in a good way!! I love to stir up emotions through my words. I have to admit, I cried writing this one…Thanks so much for always taking time to comment and share my posts. It helps to broaden my reach and allows me to share my heart with even more people xo

  9. Thanks Momma! I hope to be here for a long time to come yet 🙂 I still have so much to teach them about “free-spiriting” their way through life lol Thanks for always taking the time to comment and share my posts. It means so much xo

  10. I can’t even begin to tell you how much your words and encouragement means to me. I’m glad the letters have brought comfort to your heart Carol. I wish I could take away all of your pain. All my love, and a thousand kisses xo

  11. Thanks Holly 🙂 Our children are our greatest gifts 🙂 I’m so glad this post touched your heart as it did mine to write it. And if you ever have a chance to read the book, I’d love for you to share with me your journey through the letters 🙂

  12. I don’t have the book yet Sandy, but feel exactly the same for my young children and write a journal of all of their achievements and how proud I am of them – so they will never forget me either. Tears running down my face as I write in them and also as I read your fantastic post! Thank you for sharing x

  13. Carol Beauchamp

     /  October 25, 2012

    This is such a beautiful book Sandy. I read it over and over,always with some tears flowing. You sure have a way of expressing all the love you have in the world for your children. Your family is very gifted to have a mom like you in their lives. It is so true,life is so short. We are here one minute and gone the next with no warning. Precious memories will live on in our lives forever. You are an inspiration to so many people .I am so glad I have known you for so many wonderful years .Love yu Sandy. ♥♥

  14. Carolle Schroeder

     /  October 24, 2012

    Bravo Sandy! Your kids will never forget their Mother, because you have already left them with so many memories, and words of encouragement. You have thought them to be confident and to always look for the good in people. I hope you will be here for them…and us for many years to come.
    Your Mom

  15. Anonymous

     /  October 24, 2012

    Ok so I’m in tears again…you always know just what to say. I’m soooo proud of what you have accomplished, and I can’t wait to see what comes next.

  16. Jenny

     /  October 24, 2012

    Bravo! You have definitely located your passion, and I embrace your awesomeness! xo

  17. Thank you, Sandy, It is such a beautiful book and has already touched many lives. It has been a privilege to walk this journey with you.

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